wondering why

i wonder why should i bother about it?it keep on make me feel insane after all.should i let it go or just let it be?i just dont know why i couldn't get enough by stalking her page at all?why did i feel theres something that isn't right gonna be happen?

i just hate this feeling ever.i just hate that i keep on bother about this.is it because of the promise that i hold on to?its sucks if you understand the situation is.actually i'm tired of waiting for the answer.the answer that i seeking that could make my inner to feel calm down after all this madness attack the wild feeling.

i wish i didn't have to fall to anyone.i wish i could forget about this.unfortunely this kind of thing cant be erase until i had the answer that i'm seeking for.when are you gonna give me the answer so that i could gain my completely full of focus in what i'm doing for all this long?

i'm tired.i'm tired for waiting the answer.i would accept both of the answer with no harsh feeling at all.yeah i understand if the answer that you give to me is not what i wish for.yeah,its your choice to do what you want in your life.besides its your freedom.you're free to friend with anyone and fall for anyone.

i know both of us have a different background of life and different style of living.it keep on remind me that i shouldn't bother about this at all.but for me to think with my brain and not thinking by my heart.thinking by heart is something that i would do anything to cross the line at anyhow it takes.but for me in this thing,i should thinking by my head,which certain time,i can't cross the line no matter how.i'm afraid that it will ruin everything that i shouldn't.maybe i should give more time to think until you will speak to me about this.

hurm.i think there is no point for writing too long for this entry.all i need is to keep on waiting for the answer.oh yeah to the reader thanks for reading a piece of crap here.thanks for your time.