Dear MR.Happiness

Dearest MR Happiness


You know the reason why i wrote this entry is because i want to let you know that i'm searching you everywhere that you could be because i do need you in my life.i feel like my whole life in this year is empty without you.i'm very envy with others seeing them being happy of all the time.i wish i could be just like them to feel the happiness always in my life.i wish i could have a better life.

my life starting to be worst when you disappear from the begining of this year.i wonder why are you disappearing in this whole year.i keep on searching and keep on looking for you every each day.you came to the others but not me.may i know why?because i'm really tired to pretend that everything is okay but the fact it is not.

Dear MR.Happiness.

everything become worst and worst day by day since you left me.i keep on feeling down day by day.i know you know everything about it.but,where are you?do i make any critical mistake until you left me?i'm sorry if i had done anything wrong to you.i'm just a human being where i couldn't run from making any mistake.i'm sorry.

please oh please MR.Happiness,i'm tired for all of this.please come to me to make me feel better about all of this.i miss the momment where we can cherish all of the moment when you're inside me.i miss everything about you.without you,there is no light inside my world.i'm blind without you.

people may saw me that i'm happy all the time but,deeply inside me,you know its empty.only you can fill in this empty slot.i'm tired of faking all my action.i'm tired of faking my smiles every each day.i wonder when can you be inside of me so that i can smile for real.

since you left my life.my life wouldn't feel better without you.every each day i'm thinking about you.i miss you a lot.you make me feel uneasy to sleep all the night.you make me cry whenever i'm alone.you make me think only you but not others.i wonder why is it happen in my life.

i know you gonna read this.this entry is specially dedicated for you because i'm tired of hiding the fact that i'm not okay and pretending to be okay.i wish you could know how much you mean to me.i'm lost without you.please let me meet you once again to light up my dark days.i hope,you gonna let me find you in the rest of this year and you will be a part of my life again.i miss you.

sincere
person who lost of happiness.