negative

here i am.typing to tell my expression through this blog.i'm telling the truth about what i'm feeling now.i dont know why i'm always thinking negatively now days.always think that something is not right about what happen eventhough i know the truth is not like what i'm thinking.

but my mind wont allowed me to think in way of positive.aaahhhhhhh!!!!maybe i'm too much of thinking about what is happened.damn.what happen to me nowdays?i'm feeling really really sucks about this.i think that i'm really really undependable and cant be hope for.

damn.why am i feeling this way of thinking?am i too stress about everything?am i really dont have enough sleep?or i'm just jealous?well honestly i'm not sure about this.but i think more to jealous.i think so la.but i had a feeling that my attitude is going to change a little bit day by day.

i'm changing to more negetively than before.before this i'm more to positive.always think positive.thats my style but now,everything is changing within the time flew just like that.damn.i wonder what is going inside of me until i'm changing like this.this is not the right attitude for me.

oh man.this is kinda sucks.i hate it when the situation is making me to think negatively.damn.i cant help my self to think in the negative way.its like that my brain is going to be death soon.oh GOD i need your help to make me be just like before.i'm sick and tired to be in this way of thinking.i hope i' not gonna be in this way of thinking in a long long long time.it would be bad if it continue for a long time.

i'm afraid that this way of thinking might be effected to people all arround me.it make me in dangerously situation.and i dont want it to be happen.i hope that i wouldn't last long in this situation.haaiihhh.help me to gain my normal life back.i'm tired for being like this.